Okay so today is pretty borning i didnt do to much. I watched some made and watched the movie P.S. I Love you (which like the notebook made me cry =/). The weekend was pretty good friday i went to sonic and wawa with christina, val, and alex it was fun. Saturday i went to ariday's show and then hung out with becca and kait which was also fun. =)
So i decided to put this picture in the post because lately i have been feeling very lonely. Like there are people around me and stuff but i feel like i am missing something but i dont know what it is. I really want to find it becuase i feel there is a piece of me missing idk =/ ugh.
I want to start changing me. Starting tommorow. I want to stop worrying about the stupid stuff and start living life. I want to go to more shows alot more and have more epic experinces that i can look back on laugh and be like wow. Not that i havent but i want to get over my fear of awkward moments. I want to talk to more people from local bands and bigger bands and have them a) want to hang with me b) remeber me. But i know i will back out from doing things becuase i hate awkward moments so much. I dont want to freak out when there is an awkward moment becuase i know that is holding me back from alot of things and it sucks so much. People tell me all the time they love me when i am me but when im areound certain people i cant be myself becuase of the fear of awkward moments ugh i fail
Rawr i hope the rest of the year goes okay and not into a downward crash that would suck. No matter what im going to make next year a whole lot better becuase im going to make a good resalution(sp?) and stick to it no matter what i dont care and so far alot of good things might happen in 09 hopefully they do i just want a better happier life thats all so im going to try my best to make it that way. I am the only person that can right?
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