i must be dreaming

okay so i have alot to say so this is going to be a long one

so my best friend asked me the other day what i meant by "something real" im going to explain it right now.

What i mean by something real is that i want to feel that feeling when you know someone loves you. i want to feel those butterflys that people feel when you see the person you like. I want to know the feeling of being protected. i want to have inside jokes with someone other than my friends. I want to hug someone and hear their heartbeat and know it beats for me. I want someone to tell me that they love me. I want to have stupid fights with a boy over nothing and then make up because we both know we are wrong. i want to worry about someone when they are not around. I want to be able to go on cute litte dates. I want to kiss a boy and want it to mean something. Most of all i want to be able to call someone mine<3

i guess i can still just hope

also another thing i am discovering is the kind of person i am
what i mean by this is this

I am the type of girl who will go out in the middle of a bad rain storm becasue she loves playing in the rain. I am the type of girl who laughs at stupid things because she thinks they are funny, when no one else does. I am the type of girl who knows shes going to cry at the movie the notebook but still watches it because she loves it. I am the type of girl who doesnt want it to end because she loves watching music being played. I am the type of girl who would rather just chill than go out an spend money. I am the kind of girl who can watch her favorite movies over and over until she can repeat every line. I am the type of girl who has alot of ideas but just can not put them on paper. I am the type of girl who has big dreams and hopes for herself for the future. I am the type of girl who can get along with anyone. I am the type of girl who only hates you if you have done something wrong. I am the type of girl whos friends mean the world to her. I am the type of girl who can make alot of people laugh. I am the type of girl who cant say no to the boo-boo face. I am the type of girl who just want to have as much fun as possible. I am the type of girl who loves the sound of instruments being tuned. I am the type of girl who loves colors. I am the type of girl who cant just sit and listen to music for hours. I am the type of girl who wants to see it snow on the beach. I am the type of girl who could watch stars for hours. I am the type of girl who has 3 heros (matt flyzik, jonathan cook and shane henderson) I am the type of girl who likes to party and remember it the next morning. i am the type of girl who cries at the fox and the hound. i am the type of girl who doesnt really like to be the same. I am the type of girl who wants to see the world. I am the type of girl who wants to manage a band and go on tour. I am the type of girl who has 3 fav bands ( hipv,ftsk,e11). I am the type of girl who wants to follow warped tour. I am the type of girl who has best friends. I am the type of girl who at 19 still watches cartoons. I am the type of girl who has a crush on a band member. I am the type of girl who says what she feels. I am the type of girl who likes to break out in random dance. I am the type of girl who likes being loud. I am the type of girl whos biggest fear is awkward moments. I am the type of girl who is just being her